So this marks the final Monday of my challenge...I am both relieved and saddened at the same time. There are many ways that I am incredibly internally motivated. I do not need prodding to go to Crossfit, I love it....I go running on my off days because I love it...I fall asleep early because I love it...(well that and I am old and tired by 9:00pm). Food, preparing it and eating it correctly...making good choices etc. has always required EXternal motivation. In college the dining hall was AWESOME! I made really good choices...(as well as a number of bad ones) but every meal consisted of a salad and a hot main course, I ate fruit...I also ate dessert... but there were so many healthy things to eat that I was very well nourished. When I moved off campus and had to cook for myself it all fell apart...canned ravioli replaced breaded haddock, cheerios replaced eggs and bacon...I really didn't eat well on my own.
Taking part in this challenge and blogging about it has kept me honest....I really don't want to have to share that I ate something I had committed to avoiding...and thus far my biggest discretion has been that evil Pumpkin Head Draught Beer....(evil evil lovely Pumpkin Head)...so I worry a bit how I will behave once I am not beholden to this diet...I know that I will stick to it...I feel too good....AND...I am performing like a mad woman in the gym.
Today we did out maximum weight for five rounds for the over head press. This has been a tough one for me...although I can do pull ups now...pushing that bar over my head with more than 65 pounds on it has eluded me since joining WMCF. So today...I did 5 at 75!!!! I was pretty excited....so excited that I pushed 80 pounds up over my head (only once, but still) ...this is a big PR for me and did alot for my confidence..until the WOD that is...we were doing 4 rounds of clean and jerk separated by a 400M run. I should have put 95 pounds on that sucker...but I chicken out and only lifted 75...until Tom snuck an extra 5 pounds on after my second round...when I came in after my last round he had added 5 more...so I did 5 more reps...and it was fine...so I walked to Alaka's bar which weighed 95 pounds and did 5 more... yeah...I should have done the workout as prescribed and not been a baby about it... this was a good lesson for me...most of my workout buddies assume I am chasing a fast time in the WOD's but really...lifting weight over my head scares me...so i hold back... and I guess committing to an eating plan scares me as well...and so I hold back...but I am so much stronger than I was four weeks ago that I am wondering if all those crazy paleo people are right....(God help me if I have to get a big old Paleo "I told you so") but I think it is coming....it could be coincidence, it could be that sticking to the eating plan is giving me confidence which allows me to take bigger chances in the gym, who knows...but I do know that not unique in my transformation...let them eat meat!!!!
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